For you, a thousand times over.
For you, I’d buy a sober man’s revolver
And blow the piece of his heart that made you part
With your reflection in the mirror.
For you, I’d carry the caucasian’s concoction of what he thinks
Your colour paints, push it against the wall
And point a pistol at Doubt’s temple.
I’d even propose a deal with the devil
So I can twist the turbulent feeling you feel
So you could feel nothing but good about yourself.
I’d make sure your father never finds out
About the day you had an American wedding, annulment and a divorce.
I felt no remorse about the time you made me
Exit your ego to make room for your new found secret libido.
I’d roll up at Death Row with a sewn patchwork of your foe’s fables
Slip the guard five fifties, tip him the location of your enemies
Watch the rabid dogs go crazy at the sight of fresh meat.
Slip into cell 24, to shake hands with the criminal
Who knows how to work the Source Code
I slip him more than just five fifties
Because he shows me
How to save you
From that one moment in time
Time after time after time.
She’s in her living room, watching brightly coloured cartoons.
She’s not of age, blood had not yet left her body.
Her chest was not heavy
And her thoughts still innocent.
Her blood uncle slipped in through the door
Her first experience of thumping rage, imitating Cujo in a cage.
Her blood boiled when he slipped his hand
Where the soil had not yet been turned.
He picked and tasted her ripened fruits
At such a tender stage in Life’s play.
She looked over his broad shoulders
Her underwear on the floor is now lingerie.
She is, for that moment in time, a slave
For each breath he takes.
He breathes heavy, breathing cold air
Breathing on to the shaking veins of her legs.
He plays with her hair
His warm hands wipes away her tears
Wipes away the blood smeared
On his favourite pin stripe trousers
“Which…” he whispers in her ears,
“I paid fifty pounds to repair.”
This is when
I walk in
and yell
that the debt we’ve struggled to pay him
Has now
Been paid.
I keep coming back to this moment of our past
Time after time after time.
Thinking of ways I can save you
From being another one of his lab rats of Project Concubine.
Thinking of ways I can barricade
The death from your eyes.
Ways I can place a knife into his thighs.
Ways I can steal a homeless man’s hope for you.
A lover’s lair for you
A paralysed man’s heart for you
A holy man’s prayer for you
A blind man’s touch for you
A Sultan’s pride for you
A troubadour’s song for you
And push away all those who are wrong for you.
I promised you that I’d save you
from the pain the outsider’s reign with
And the pain the insider’s claim they don’t play with.
For you I’d buy a drunk man’s revolver
And blow the heart that made you part
With the person you are now
From the person you were from the start.
I promise you.
For you, a thousand times over.
sober mans revolver… doubts temple.. hopeless mans hope.. holy mans prayer… blind mans touch.. drunk mans revolver… this is so beautifully written!
Thank youu! I’m glad you appreciate the slightly violent images there lol
erm, what inspired this?
Mainly Kite Runner, it’s such an amazing book. And I drew on some personal experiences from people around me too.